Call me a quitter....

Well I've pretty much quit band. A very tough decision to be sure, but there were a whole lot more reasons personally for me to quit than for me to stay. For one thing those dang tenors are just too heavy for me, being as relatively small as I am. There were also I don't know how many things I had to miss last year because of band, usually things I much rather would have done than the said band event. The classes I can take in place of band such as photography and video production just suit my interests much better anyway, and are much less time consuming. Sure I like being a musician, and I still will be, playing guitar and such, but I'm just not that passionate about it really.

Practice itself today is part of what pushed my decision ahead. Marching those drums for four hours was I think about the least enjoyable thing I've ever done in my life. I really think I'd rather have my wisdom teeth out all over again that what I did this morning. I know it's something you have to get used to but even so, some people are better suited to it than others, and when it's something I guess I''m not all that crazy about in the first place it just doesn't make sense to push myself that hard, especially when it's something I'll only do until I'm out of high school anyway.

I guess I really have mixed feelings about quitting. It feels like a huge burden lifted off me to not have band to worry about, which is great, it was putting a lot of stress on me, but at the same time I really hate quitting, I know my parents were a huge asset as band boosters and I'll hate just not being part of the band. As I told my dad, I don't want to quit band, but there's nothing I want to do in band. Kind of a strange statement I know, but true.

Essentially to wrap things up, I've just decided that it's not to worth it to me to continue to burn so much time going to practice I don't want to go to in order to do something I'm not that passionate about. Sure I thought I wanted to beyond all reason, but it's just simply come to my realization that marching is not for me. I'll miss all the fun moments that band does bring with it... but for me its not worth all the very un-fun moments when there are plenty of other things out there that I will personally have more fun doing.